I was sick for about 2 weeks.
It was TERRIBLE!!
I think the worst part of it all was the fact that I was unable to work out.
I had made a commitment to myself to complete a new fitness program.
I was only a few weeks into it when I had to stop.
Now I have to start all over again!
It wasn't easy, but I did it!
After over two weeks, I forced myself back into the gym.
I was so tired and just not feeling it that I only changed my pants and shoes.
I stepped onto the machine and threw my hair into a ponytail!
I ended up doing about 50 minutes of cardio, but it only took a couple minutes for me to feel revitalized and rejuvenated.
I never will give up on my body or myself!
So I have to say that I've really been struggling lately with balance.
I have known for a long time that balance is really important for maintaining not only your sanity but your sense of self.
I have been sick and so I haven't really been able to much besides eat, drink, sleep and of course go to work.
But I came to realize that I was demanding too much from my body.
In an attempt to balance all the things I want and need to do, I completely neglected the fact that I need to rest, recuperate, SLEEP!
So I am now working on formulating a new more balanced, more relaxed schedule.
Hopefully, with the help of this guy I'll be able to increase my efficiency!
I've been wanting to vlog for a while now and like Reasonable Dose I could utilize my time in the car!
I'm super excited!
Thanks Reasonable Dose for the inspiration and good idea!
Achieving Balance Yoga Leggings
Super soft, stretchy and comfortable yoga leggings.
• 82% polyester/18% spandex
• Material has a four-way stretch, which means fabric stretches and recovers on the cross and lengthwise grains.
• Made with a smooth, comfortable microfiber yarn
• Inner pocket
• Raised waistband
• Precision-cut and hand-sewn after printing
Achieving Balance Racerback
This yin yang with a lotus is a nod to the beauty in our efforts to achieve balance. Yoga + this racerback = YES!!
It's made of cotton, polyester and rayon which makes it light, soft and slightly stretchy. Perfect for hanging out, yoga or lounging!
• 50% polyester/25% combed ring-spun cotton/25% rayon
• Fabric weight: 4.2 oz (142 g/m2)
• Raw edge seams
• Fabric is laundered to reduce shrinkage
Achieving Balance Cap
Balance is a beautiful thing. This cap is perfect for topping off your favorite weekend outfit!
This hat is made in the USA, so wear it proud! It's unstructured with a curved visor and adjustable strap, and an American flag sewn on the back.
• 100% washed cotton chino twill
• Unstructured, 6-panel, low-profile
• Adjustable strap with hide-away buckle
• Head circumference: 19 ¼” - 23 ⅝”
• Made in the USA
I hope you like the products I've created!
I love creating what I think are simple yet meaningful designs!
Let me know what you think!
(unless you don't like them, just kidding)
I know that you've heard it said so many times that life is short so you should have fun.
There's a reason for that... it's true!
Honestly though, no matter whether you live a short life or a long life it should be full of FUN!
Please enjoy this video of me making a fool of myself in Walmart on a Friday night!
Have you ever felt your "spidey sense" tingling?
You know that gut feeling... also known as your intuition.
Listen to it.
It's one sure fire way to reduce your regrets!
Happy Tuesday my loves!
A few years ago I posted about Retail Therapy.
Yesterday I wasn't feeling well and I decided eating a slice pizza from my favorite pizza place would perk me up.
My hubby and I wound up splitting three slices, a cup of ice cream and 1.5 cookies.
I felt better... for about 30 minutes.
Although our lunch was tasty and offered some temporary satisfaction, it was just that... temporary.
I think those good feelings came from two places:
1. Lack of restriction
2. Happy tastebuds
It felt good to not deny myself the foods I wanted because they weren't part of my current weight loss diet.
However, it sent my digestive system into shock.
Obviously, it felt good to have all those yummy flavors dancing on my taste buds.
But when all those tasty yet fatty and sugary calories began to mix around together in my stomach the party was over.
It was like a food hangover.
Something I NEVER want to experience again.
So, I've decided to stick to delayed gratification.
I'd rather wait a while to get what I really want than to trade momentary happiness for hours or days of pain and anguish!
I read a post on Instagram the other day that said, "You can't pour from an empty cup".
This is something I've written about before.
The fact is that if you don't take care of yourself than you won't be able to take care of your loved ones.
Today, I am feeling like an empty cup.
Have you ever felt like you just can't be what someone needs you to be?
That's how I'm feeling today.
The worst thing is that I feel that what I need to do in order to be a full cup is one of the things that will make someone I love feel the least cared for.
I realize that I although I've tried, I just can't fill both us both.
Is this a instance where being selfish is a necessity?
Is this one of those times when it's ok to be selfish.
I think it is.
I came to a sad revelation Thursday night.
I can't do it all.
I am a wife, a mother, an employee, a sister and a daughter.
On top of all that, I am trying to be a student of life, a blogger, one day soon a vlogger and a designer.
Thursday night I was working in the basement.
By the time I came up for air (and sleep), everyone but my husband had already gone to bed.
I didn't even get to kiss them good night!
(Except for Juli who fell asleep on my lap earlier in the evening)
If I have time for work, family and exercise then I don't have time for my blog.
I have the option of shifting certain priorities around from day to day but the bottom line is that I just don't have time or energy to do it all.
While this is a sad revelation for me, it is also sobering.
Now, I have a greater appreciation for my time and I am far less willing to waste it.
Cheers to our precious time!
So, while I still have yet to complete the workout, I did at least make it past the point that broke me last time!
I’m excited and I’m proud.
It wasn’t easy, but I did it!
So I started a new work out program on Monday.
It is the most grueling work out program I have ever come across!
I'm not in great shape but I'm also not in terrible shape.
I started this program on Monday and I have yet to complete a single work out!
But, it's not like I haven't been trying.
I have left all of me on the floor or in the gym rather.
There is a difference between quitting and understanding that you have pushed your body to it's limit.
I had conflicting feelings about not completing the first work out.
But when I realized that I had literally done all that I could do, I felt good.
I was proud of myself for pushing myself further than I had EVER pushed myself before.
So take pride when you've done all you can.
Don't worry about what anyone else is doing or has done.
You are you.
Whether you know it or not there is someone out there wishing they could do what you've done.
As I prepare for today's grueling work out, I am hoping that I can at least make it to the point in the work out where I had to stop on Monday!
Have a great Friday!
I literally don't know how many times I've said "slow progress is still progress" in the past few days.
A few weeks ago, I posted about not beating myself up for missing a deadline.
I set a goal to start vlogging instead of blogging on New Year's Day.
Obviously if you are reading this, you know that I still have not accomplished what I set out to do.
However, I am still not kicking myself for it.
I know that when setting out to do something new, you will almost inevitably find unexpected tasks associated with what you are trying to do.
So, although I have yet to achieve my goal, I am making progress!
And at the end of the day, it's better to make progress at a snail's pace than to be stagnant or worse regress!
So cheers to all of us who are out there constantly plugging along at whatever pace we can!
Happy Thursday my loves!
So I was thinking about my posting schedule. If you have been along for the journey for any period of time, you know that I really don't have a posting schedule.
I started thinking, "I should have a posting schedule".
But then I thought a bit more deeply about it.
I thought about me.
I thought about what I am doing here.
It doesn't make sense for me to have a posting schedule.
I post when I have revelations.
You can't schedule epiphanies!
So there you have it!
A random Thursday revelation!
It's the first Wednesday of 2018 and I am already failing where my "resolutions" are concerned!
First of all I wanted to start my vlog on the first of the year. Obviously that didn't happen.
Secondly, I was supposed to start my new diet and exercise programs. That didn't happen either!
But what did happen? I got sick!
At first I thought, "great way to start the year"
But then I thought about something my son said. I'm going to paraphrase here because I don't remember the exact words he used (sorry son). He said that a calendar doesn't dictate when he's going to make changes in his life.
Out of the mouths of babes!
He is right. I know that I have goal that I want to accomplish. Am I just going to give up on those goals because I didn't accomplish them within a 24 hour period? Heck no!
We plan and God laughs!
Thanks so much for reading and stay tuned for my vlog (whenever it comes out)!
I want to wish you all a wonderful, happy prosperous, safe and healthy 2018!
I’ve got some big news coming in the next couple weeks and I am oh so excited to share it with you all!
But for now, have a great day with family and friends!
Happy Friday Everyone!
I'm sitting here in the library with my daughters on this beautiful Friday afternoon. I came here for them. My 4 year old recently learned to read and I'm trying to keep her as excited about reading as possible. I'm looking around the library for books for both my girls when I realize, there is a whole half of the library that I haven't even been in in ages!
I venture out of the children's section and memories of curling up to read came flooding back to me. I used to really love reading. I would essentially ruin books for myself by reading them so fast and then I'd be on to the next one... kind of like Belle from Disney's Beauty and the Beast.
I made a decision today. I'm going to start reading for pleasure again. Starting with this book:
I never lost my passion for reading, I just misplaced it for awhile. Stay tuned for the post book post hehehe!
I just have to say that I LOVE my shirt! I'm not in the best shape but I am working on it. I'm allowing myself to celebrate small victories along my journey! I hope you're doing the same!
Happy Valentine's Day!!
While people typically associate this holiday with romance, I want to talk about love in general today. Whether it is love between a husband and wife or a parent and child. Love is absolutely necessary. We all need love.
If you've been reading this blog for a while you know that quoting the bible isn't something I usually do, however there are a lot of concepts that I wholeheartedly agree with concerning love in the bible.
1 Corinthians 13:4 states, "Love is patient, love is kind...". To me that means that when you love someone you are patient with them and you are kind to them. You treat them better than you want to be treated. This is the type of love I am talking about when I say that everyone needs love. Everyone needs to treated like they are special to someone else.
It has been a crazy 12 months for me and honestly the ONLY thing that got me through the past year has been love. Love from my husband especially but also love from my parents and sister, love from my children.
Someone recently reminded me that people come into your life for a multitude of different reasons. Some people will always be there while others will come in fuck you over and then leave. It's the people who are there to love you forever that help you get through the tough times and the bad people.
So this Valentine's day I just want to say thank you to my family for loving me, I love you so much!!
I was so inspired this weekend.
We went to see Hidden Figures this weekend. I am always inspired by movies where people are faced with obstacles and they push through those obstacles to achieve their goals anyway.
I don’t want to give away the movie for those of you who haven’t seen it yet, even though it is based on true events. The movie takes place in Virginia in the early 60’s. One of the main characters was a black woman who wanted to be an engineer for NASA. There was a part in the movie where the engineers at NASA were struggling to fix a problem and I turned to my daughter and I said, “They need a black woman engineer” to which my daughter replied, “Like me” I cried.
Allow me to give you a brief history about my daughter. She is a beautiful 10 year old girl who until very recently denied that she had any interest at all in math, engineering or science. She is a smart girl who consistently earns awards at school. She just didn’t realize that she had an interest in math and science. Hearing her refer to herself as an engineer made me feel so good because she understands that becoming an engineer is a very real option for her and one that at least at the age of 10 she is willing to entertain.
The other inspiring event that happened this weekend was Super Bowl 51
I, like I’m sure many others, pretty much thought the game was over in the 3rd quarter.
However, the Patriots never gave up and now they are the only team to ever win the Super Bowl in overtime (at least that’s what I read online last night). Tom Brady is the first quarterback to win 5 Super Bowls.
The brilliant women at NASA and the Patriots have something in common. They never gave up. They took risks and some of them paid off and some of them didn’t. But they gave it their all and that’s what makes them champions.
So here's the thing... recently I was in a place where women were telling themselves that they are beautiful in order to feel motivated. This was a huge problem for me. All my life people have told me that I am beautiful or pretty or whatever. Now don't get me wrong, there have also been some mean kids who told me otherwise. My mom was always there to tell me that they were wrong and that they were just jealous. Now, I don't know how true that was but it definitely made me feel better. It ir also helped me to realize that it doesn't matter what other people think of me.
Now, the reason I have such a big problem with girls and women drawing motivation from their outer appearance:
It's about what I can do, not who I am.
What does the way I look have to do with what I can do?
I was born this way, people are either going to think I'm beautiful or they aren't. There's nothing I can do about that.
But what I can do is learn. I can try. I can be productive. I can be creative. I can impact the world.
My daughter is in a club at her school called GEMS which stands for Girls Excited about Math and Science. I don't know if you've noticed but there has been a huge push trying to get girls to become more interested in math and science. Why is that? In my humble opinion, it's because there has always been so much importance stressed to girls about outer appearance by society. Case in point... are there any beauty competitions for boys? No. The only competitions for boys are based on what they can do not the way they look.
I talked about how people have complimented me all my life, well people have also told me how bright I am and how smart I am. Which I didn't hear quite as much as the physical compliments, but they were the most impressive.
I appreciate all of the encouraging words that I've received over the years because they've helped shape my mind into what it is today.
I'm still growing. I'm still learning. I'm still maturing.
The day I stop growing is the day I die.
Today I had an opportunity to do something I've had really strong mixed emotions about. I didn't do it. I should have, but I didn't. I realized almost immediately that I'd made a mistake. For a moment I regretted it, but then I started planning for the next time. How will I do what needs to be done the next time this opportunity presents itself. What will I say? How will I say it?
I know I've grown because it's been awhile since I've missed an opportunity... especially one that I'd been waiting for.
And now I know I've grown even more because I know that I won't miss the next one.
Today is my grandmother's birthday. Although she's no longer physically here with us, she'll always be with me.
All of the things she taught me, all of the fun times we shared. All of the great memories I have are a part of me.
Thank you Grandma!
Thank you for everything!!
I love you now and forever!
Saturday night we went to a comedy magic show in Baltimore, Md. It was a lot of fun.
As you know, I have been trying to do new things. So when my hubby first brought the idea of a magic comedy show I thought, "heck yeah!"
The show was really entertaining. The illusionist/magician's name was Spencer Horsman.
He had great energy and he interacted with the crowd a lot. He said he had been performing since he was like 5 years old.
How awesome is that? To find something you are passionate about at such a young age and spend your life doing it. I'm still not there yet and I am clearly not 5 years old. One of these days I will find my passion(s) and my life will be complete! Until then I'm enjoying the journey and I hope you are too!
Today is Friday!! Friday usually means leg day but this week has been so crazy that we are actually skipping the gym today. But for us skipping the gym doesn't mean not exercising at all. Especially this week. Today is day 13 of our 14 day shred program. So skipping the workout is definitely not an option.
So the plan is to do body weight workouts at the track late tonight after all our chauffeuring and errands are done.
I guess the point I'm trying to get across is that if something is important, if you have a goal nothing should stand in your way. The only real obstacle you have is you.
I hope you all have a great Friday!!
I hope you all are having a wonderful weekend!
You may remember that I climbed to the top of the rock wall a while back. Well, once I accomplished that feat I never attempted climbing again... until yesterday. Yesterday after working out I decided on a whim to try the wall again.
There were so many thoughts and emotions flowing through me.
He quickly made it to the top of the wall. I was so proud! Looking up at him cheering was a great feeling. At that moment it didn't matter what I did because I'd just witnessed him reach the top and reach his goal.
It didn't take long for that feeling to pass. I needed to reach the goal that is set for myself. I needed to reach the top. I did it! I reached muscle failure a couple times along the way but I never gave up.
I felt so good after pushing through the physical barriers to make it to the top of that wall.
I hope you all have a fantastic week full of accomplishments no matter how small!
I can honestly say that over the course of my life I have struggled with my confidence. I used to put a lot of stock into what other people thought of me.
Unlike a lot of my peers in high school though I didn't dress or style my hair because I wanted others to approve of me or to envy me. I wanted the people that I loved and respected to think highly of me. I wanted to earn their respect in return.
As an adult I made certain decisions and choices based on whether or not others would approve. I really stressed myself out thinking about how others would view me and the things I did and said.
Now I make decisions based on what I deem is best. I choose what I think is right. Now I only have myself to blame when I fall short and I can credit myself when I succeed.
One of the toughest lessons I've learned in my life is that you can't control your emotions... no matter how hard you try. Yes you can control your actions and reactions when experiencing certain emotions, but controlling the actual emotion is impossible.
We are all human and we all go through times of very strong emotions. For instance, I typically don't cry. Something really serious has to happen in order for me to shed a tear. I used to cry more often when I was younger. For some reason over the years I convinced myself that crying somehow equals weakness. Although I know that it isn't true. I guess I just feel like I don't have control over myself when I cry.
I've tried to makes myself feel certain things like if I'm sad I'll just try to make myself happy. But that isn't necessarily changing or controlling my emotions, it's more like processing the emotions quickly. Earlier today I was thinking about when my son was a baby. For some reason that almost always brings tears to my eyes. I think that it is the idea of loss. The person he was is gone. He will never be like that again. That makes me sad. I miss his cute little cheeks and the way he mispronounced words. Although I know that he will never be like that again, it makes me happy to know that he is a great young man. He's smart, funny and considerate. I'm proud of who he is today. And what's more, I can have real conversations and sometimes debates with him.
So the lesson here is that you can't change your emotions but you can shift your focus so that the emotion you experience is a more pleasant one. Thanks for reading! Leave a comment if you like!