So here's the thing... recently I was in a place where women were telling themselves that they are beautiful in order to feel motivated. This was a huge problem for me. All my life people have told me that I am beautiful or pretty or whatever. Now don't get me wrong, there have also been some mean kids who told me otherwise. My mom was always there to tell me that they were wrong and that they were just jealous. Now, I don't know how true that was but it definitely made me feel better. It ir also helped me to realize that it doesn't matter what other people think of me.
Now, the reason I have such a big problem with girls and women drawing motivation from their outer appearance:
It's about what I can do, not who I am.
What does the way I look have to do with what I can do?
I was born this way, people are either going to think I'm beautiful or they aren't. There's nothing I can do about that.
But what I can do is learn. I can try. I can be productive. I can be creative. I can impact the world.
My daughter is in a club at her school called GEMS which stands for Girls Excited about Math and Science. I don't know if you've noticed but there has been a huge push trying to get girls to become more interested in math and science. Why is that? In my humble opinion, it's because there has always been so much importance stressed to girls about outer appearance by society. Case in point... are there any beauty competitions for boys? No. The only competitions for boys are based on what they can do not the way they look.
I talked about how people have complimented me all my life, well people have also told me how bright I am and how smart I am. Which I didn't hear quite as much as the physical compliments, but they were the most impressive.
I appreciate all of the encouraging words that I've received over the years because they've helped shape my mind into what it is today.
I'm still growing. I'm still learning. I'm still maturing.
The day I stop growing is the day I die.
Today I had an opportunity to do something I've had really strong mixed emotions about. I didn't do it. I should have, but I didn't. I realized almost immediately that I'd made a mistake. For a moment I regretted it, but then I started planning for the next time. How will I do what needs to be done the next time this opportunity presents itself. What will I say? How will I say it?
I know I've grown because it's been awhile since I've missed an opportunity... especially one that I'd been waiting for.
And now I know I've grown even more because I know that I won't miss the next one.
Today is my grandmother's birthday. Although she's no longer physically here with us, she'll always be with me.
All of the things she taught me, all of the fun times we shared. All of the great memories I have are a part of me.
Thank you Grandma!
Thank you for everything!!
I love you now and forever!