Over the years I have really tried to live up to the expectations that others had for me, even when they were not in line with my own expectations. I have come to realize over the past few weeks that it isn't fair to myself to live my life according to what other people want for me. I only get one life and at the end I don't want to look back on my life and say, "I did what he thought was best for me and learned to knit" or "I really made her happy by finishing law school". I'm using arbitrary examples here but you get my drift.
I want to look back at my life and think, "I'm really glad I tried painting" and "I never would have thought that I would have made a good seamstress, until I tried!" Even now, I look back on my life and there just aren't enough of those statements. I've tasted different menu items at a bunch of chain restaurants and I've watched a bunch of TV shows and movies. I've watched other people live their lives instead of living my own.
Recently I've tried a few things:
I'm so glad I've tried these things! Trying these things has made me hungry for more life experiences. There are so many things I want to do now. Even though there are people in my life who make comments that let me know how little they believe in me, I believe in myself. I am finally starting to live for me. I've never been so happy or felt so alive. I'm not giving this feeling up for anyone!