So... I have to admit that I am really proud of myself for getting this far. When I finally faced the fact that I really don't know me at all, that led me to the second hardest part of my journey. If what they say is true, and the most difficult part is admitting you have a problem, then the runner up has to be figuring out where to go from there.
I've decided that it may be best for me to examine my life up until this point. Perhaps I can learn something about myself by looking at the how's and why's that led me to this place in my life.
There have been several major changes in my life that I believe have had an impact on who I am today. Two of the things that are most easily identifiable are becoming a wife and mother. These are the moments when your life stops being all about you. Before getting married and having children, I dreamt of getting married and having children. Once I got married and had children their dreams became my dreams. It didn't happen overnight but eventually I stopped thinking about what I wanted out of life for myself and began thinking about only what I wanted for them and their lives.
I have heard it so many times, that in order to care for someone else you have to take care of yourself. I am learning firsthand just how true that is.